Thursday Thoughts – Universal Doubt and Wisdom

universeSee? The Universe has done it again.

Always listen to your doubts, Silver.

Not just because they might teach you of your fears, but because, sometimes, they might teach you of your wisdom.

Lovin’ it all,
The Universe
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Deeper than most will get, huh, Silver?

How many of us, as writers, wear our doubts on our sleeves like our heroines wear their hearts? My doubts used to cripple me. I never finished a project because I continuously returned to previously written words to “fix” them. I fixed them so much I would eventually quit writing new words. It wasn’t always that way. I remember like #ThrowbackThursday when. I remember the words tumbling through my imagination in a rush to hit the written page. Yes. Written. Long hand. Eventually the words were typed. Then recorded on a word processor. And my first computer. I sort of miss that ol’ Compaq “portable” with it’s nine inch screen. My Kindle Fire’s screen is bigger. LOLOL

At some point, I decided I wanted to write for publication. And thus began my search for writing perfection. Yeah…about that. It doesn’t happen. I don’t care who you are, that first draft is never as good as we think it is, nor is it as bad. That is the dichotomy of the writer’s brain. That was definitely true of THE DEVIL’S CUT. The original? UGH! Yes, it was that bad. So bad I was tempted to throw it out and start completely from scratch. But somewhere, in between the doubts in my ability to fix it and the fears that it sucked too bad to be redeepmed, I learned the wisdom of this story. I learned it’s first breath. And it’s last. I learned how much a woman is willing to give up to the man she loves. I learned the wisdom of letting the story tell itself, of the characters finiding their own place in their own time. And I can sit back now, and consider the wisdom of the Universe and what it decided to teach me this time around.

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About Silver James

I like walks on the wild side and coffee. Lots of coffee. Warning: My Muse runs with scissors. Author of two award-winning series--Moonstruck and The Penumbra Papers, Red Dirt Royalty (Harlequin Desire) & other books! Purveyor of magic, mystery, mayhem and romance. Lots and lots of romance.
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4 Responses to Thursday Thoughts – Universal Doubt and Wisdom

  1. Doubts. What doubts? Oh gad, I can’t even type that with a straight face. My life is doubt. It’s wrapped around me like an itchy old wool blanket that I can’t get away from. But my feet must be sticking out the bottom because I keep on moving forward. Some days I think of how much easier it would be to lay down, stop the struggle, let the blanket enfold me. But I keep moving like a man lost in a blizzard. If I lay down, I’ll freeze. :shrug:

    Speaking of moving, BloodFlow is still on track. Edits due back tomorrow or Saturday. Cover done. Blurb done. Time to finish it and put it out there for the world to read. Whether they’ll do so remains to be seen.

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