Sometimes I sit and ponder the Universe. Sometimes I just sit. Sometimes I sit and make up stories in my head. Sometimes I sit at the computer and write those stories down. Sometimes I look back on my life and wonder how the heck-fire I ended up where I am today. And then the Universe drops something like this message into my inbox…
If you would simply think deeply, Silver, on the things you’ve loved most about life; on the things you’ve loved most about yourself; and of the main challenges you’ve faced, whether behind you or in the moment; you will then know in an instant, beyond a shadow of a doubt, exactly why you chose this lifetime.
Besides being a genius.
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Now, Silver, to figure out why everyone else showed up….
I’m not a genius, despite what the big U thinks. And yeah, I do wonder why I ended up with the people who are in my life. Did I pick them? Did they pick me? Well, my parents did. Sort of. I became available for adoption and they took me home. Without my dad’s influence, I wouldn’t be the person I am. I wouldn’t love reading and telling stories and making shit up. Or maybe I would. Maybe that was in me all along but he gave me permission to love reading and telling stories and making shit up. I miss my dad. A lot. But he also taught me that life was to be lived. So I wake up each day and wonder what new wonder the world will share with me, whether in reality or imagination.
It’s like knowing that a daffodil will bloom on my birthday because no matter where I’ve lived, there’s been a daffodil blooming in my yard on my birthday. It’s like struggling with a scene and going out to turn my face to the sun, eyes closed, soaking the warmth into my skin and suddenly knowing what that scene is wrong and what I can do to fix it. It’s like lying warm under the covers in the darkness, listening to the world wake up around me and understanding that no matter how old I get, there’s another sunrise to see, another morning bird call to hear, another pot of coffee to tease my nose as it perks. And there’s always another story to right, another battle to fight, another Happily Ever After to bring into the light. So yes, Universe. You are correct. Every step I’ve taken has led me to the life I’m living at this moment. As for everyone else showing up? I don’t have a clue. Another day, maybe. Today, I have a story to right, a battle to fight, and an HEA that needs to see the light of day.
As for the rest of you? Why are you here? 😉