There are times. Okay, to be honest, lots of times, when I look at my peers and wonder what they have going for them that I don’t? How do they sell so many books? How do they win the awards, make the best-seller lists, get the fab agents, movie deals, and sell books. Why not me? My books are just as good. Of course, I suck at marketing, which is part of it. And then I envy them because they obviously don’t suck. It’s a vicious circle and a hamster wheel I try not to jump on. But I’m human. We all are. Even those I’m envious of.
While you might, from time to time, envy others, Silver, it’s precisely during those moments when you might ask yourself whether or not you’d actually like to be them.
Envy cured, huh?
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Personally, Silver, I think you and I have it made.
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Mostly no, I don’t want to be like them. And Universe? I’m glad you have it made. I worry sometimes. Because if you don’t have it going on, the rest of us are hosed.
The thing is, I don’t really want to BE them. I want to be LIKE them. I want to have their abilities, smarts, luck–whatever that puts them in the position I’d like to be in. I keep slogging along looking for the magic formula. And yes, while there might be magic in my books, I’m well aware that in real life “magic” = “work.” Anyway, this is my current head space. Not a particularly productive place to be, but there it is.
What about y’all? Are there others that you envy?
Note: This also applies to people who win the lottery. Totally envious of them! 😉
Silver James 
Yep and yep and yep. It’s not so bad when I know the person I’m envious of is putting in the work to achieve their successes. Hell, I’m envious sometimes of your work ethic. If I could have half of your gumption, I know I’d have more accomplished – like this book I was supposed to turn in Monday. So then I bust my buns and don’t accomplish the big win or even a little win and then it’s all meh.
When it looks like they fell bass-ackwards into it? Grrrr. Totally rubs my fur the wrong way. (And yes, that includes lottery winners. I have no luck.) Why can’t I fall bass-ackwards into something awesome?
Don’t envy my work ethic at the moment. I’m months behind! We really need to figure out a way to sit and have coffee. Some day!