There are times. Okay, to be honest, lots of times, when I look at my peers and wonder what they have going for them that I don’t? How do they sell so many books? How do they win the awards, make the best-seller lists, get the fab agents, movie deals, and sell books. Why not me? My books are just as good. Of course, I suck at marketing, which is part of it. And then I envy them because they obviously don’t suck. It’s a vicious circle and a hamster wheel I try not to jump on. But I’m human. We all are. Even those I’m envious of.

While you might, from time to time, envy others, Silver, it’s precisely during those moments when you might ask yourself whether or not you’d actually like to be them.

Envy cured, huh?
The Universe

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Personally, Silver, I think you and I have it made.
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Mostly no, I don’t want to be like them. And Universe? I’m glad you have it made. I worry sometimes. Because if you don’t have it going on, the rest of us are hosed.

The thing is, I don’t really want to BE them. I want to be LIKE them. I want to have their abilities, smarts, luck–whatever that puts them in the position I’d like to be in. I keep slogging along looking for the magic formula. And yes, while there might be magic in my books, I’m well aware that in real life “magic” = “work.” Anyway, this is my current head space. Not a particularly productive place to be, but there it is.

What about y’all? Are there others that you envy?

Note: This also applies to people who win the lottery. Totally envious of them! 😉