How can we be two days away from March?!?!? I mean, February IS a short month but seriously?!?! The days seem to be flying by and yet as I look back, I don’t seem to have accomplished anything. And yeah, I’m still healing from the surgeries but still… Also, I love this cat’s face. And yeah, I’m kinda like a poorly folded fitted sheet right now. LOL
Okay, let’s get the health update out of the way first. The right eye (first surgery) is healing well and vision continues to improve–at least distance viewing. Up close? Yeah, not so much but that’s to be expected since the new lens switched me from nearsighted to farsighted. I’m lucky that an old pair of LG’s reading glasses mostly works for upclose reading (like cooking directions and mail) and the computer. They aren’t the correct prescription so I can’t spend hours on the computer like I’m used to. Come Tuesday, I’m two weeks down range on it. The left eye? Yeah, that one had a big ol’ question mark. The doc wouldn’t know how much of my vision loss was caused by deterioration of the optic nerve and how much was the cataract. Removing the cataract cleared off the fog. Before the surgery, looking through that eye was like looking at a fogged-up mirror. I could see amorphous shapes and blurred colors but not much else. I was really hoping for a miracle. When I didn’t get one, I was bummed out. Majorly. I do have a bit more clarity when I use that eye. There’s some structure to the shapes and the colors aren’t so washed out, and sometimes I can almost make out letters if I’m close enough. Sadly, the pressure in both eyes continues to fluctuate though the doc did say that could take up to 8 weeks to stablize. He did put me back on glaucoma drops. I have two more days of lots of drops in the left. I’m down to two drops twice a day in the right.
Anyway, I’m gearing up energy and brain to resume my normal routine–five posts a week, replying to comments in a timely fashion, and putting down new words on the book. It’s really hit home that I could lose my sight and while I’d work to figure out some way to keep writing, I have so many stories to I want to tell. I need to get my fat arse in gear and get them told. I did manage 250 words last week and lo and behold, I garnered an honorable mention in the flash fiction challenge. Go me!
I also get to go to Wallyworld all by meself today–mainly because I don’t have to buy anything that’s 10 pounds or over. LG and Stormy went with me last week and I wore them out. LOL It’ll be weird because I haven’t driven in two weeks. And Starbucks!
In other news–SOFTBALL!!!! BASEBALL!!!! I caught several of OSU’s softball games on the radio and my Cardinals had televised games Saturday and Sunday. I am sooo ready for spring partly due to spring sports. I do love me some softball and baseball. No surprise to any regulars around here.
It’s still weird to watch TV without my glasses. At my follow-up eye test last Wednesday, I was still 20/40 in the right and the doc is hoping it will settle in at 20/20. I have noticed that my eyes are a bit blurry and unfocused early but once I’m up and moving, have had coffee, and have done both some close-up and faraway seeing, I have more acuity. The follow-ups previously were at 7:00 a.m. This week’s follow-up is at 10:30. Yay. Hopefully, that means my vision will test better. And again, it could take 6-8 weeks for the vision to stabilize as well.
I’ve been listneing to the “graphic audio” versions of Eileens Wilks World of the Lupi books. I vaguely remember reading them years ago when they first came out but there are some differences between my memory (granted, it often resembles Swiss cheese) and this dramatized version with multiple cast members. Still, I’m enjoying them. I also have the new JD Robb waiting for me. Not sure why I haven’t jumped into it yet. Favorite series, favorite author and all that.
Anyway, that’s what’s up with me. Life is settling into the new normal, for better or worse. I remain hopeful and optimistic despite this round of depression. It too shall pass. I hope to get new words this week as I draw closer to the one-year anniversary of starting this WIP. Time to get the darn thing finished, right? Right! What’s up with y’all?

Why is Friday the 13th considered unlucky but Monday the 13th isn’t? That seems just…wrong, somehow. LOL Also, it’s the Monday after Super Bowl. Who’s hungover from food and/or drin? Don’t be shy, raise your hands. 🙋🏼♀️ I’m making burgers tonight. They were yummy and we didn’t munch our way through the game. Traditionally, I list my favorite commercials watched during the Super Bowl. And yes, I’ll actually watch this year. I don’t have a team favorite–reasons for rooting for both teams but I’m kinda pulling for the Chiefs. Anyway. I’m actually typing this on Sunday afternoon before the game starts and if I get back around to adding the commericals, yay! If not, y’all can tell me your faves–if you watch–in the comments. And yes, the tense shifts if this paragraph are enough to give an editor apoplexy. Normally, if I set up the blog a day early, I use the tense I’d use as if writing the day of posting. Anyway…here’s what’s going on.
Sometimes, the voices in my head won’t shut up. All the characters (and I mean ALL of them) jabber and argue about whose story is more important. And sometimes, they go completely silent. I’m weird. I can’t sleep if it’s quiet. The moment things go quiet, I’m wide awake and wondering what’s wrong. We sleep with the TV on. We used to sleep with the scanner on because I was on call and it also reminded me of the radio traffic when I was doing 24-hour shifts at the fire station. It becomes white noise and conformting. Silence is not. Then the Universe sent me this…

















