It’s Thursday again. I shouldn’t be but I am always slightly amazed that the days roll by so swiftly. As a kid, time stretched endlessly. Summer was long and lazy, school a hazy conundrum on the far horizon. And then it was the end of August and I was back in school and each vacation break seemed a far distant hope. The end of the year and any hope of the freedom of summer was a millenium away. Now I’m old and I look over my shoulder and think, Wait. What? It was just Saturday. Or Sunday. I forget which. How can it be Thursday all of a sudden? Which has nothing to do with today’s message from the Universe, except it sort of does, in a weird, roly-poly way. The older I get, the more self-doubts I have, especially when it comes to my writing. Am I too old to be in touch with the new batch of readers coming up? Are my storys/characters/etc. worth reading? This is especially true when it comes to editing and revisions. Which is why I probably shouldn’t go back and look at a manuscript once I finally say, “Enough!” so I can get it formatted and uploaded, or emailed to my editor. Due to some technically issues (like losing the whole damn document after revisions!), I knew I had to go back through RESCUE MOON. I did not anticipate real life being such a witch so that it’s taken way longer than it should. Which just gives more time to doubt.
Always listen to your doubts, Silver.
Not just because they might teach you of your fears, but because, sometimes, they might teach you of your wisdom.
Lovin’ it all,
Deeper than most will get, huh, Silver?
The Big U is right. Sometimes, the doubt teaches us wisdom. I’m learning that there’s a reason I’m going back through RESCUE MOON. I’ve added over 4K words and I still (as of the composing and scheduling of this post on Wednesday) have six chapters and the epilogue to go. In rereading it, I’ve discovered that, with this book at least, more is better. I’m reaching deeper into the emotions and thoughts of the hero and heroine. I’m stretching the action with a bit more description to better set the scene. I’m choosing my words more carefully. That’s all good. Even so, once I get it uploaded and I’m waiting for it to go live, for that first sale, and that first review, I will doubt myself. I will wonder if I chose the right words, if tinkering with it made it better or worse. Such is the nature of the beast. If writing was easy, everyone would do it, right? 😉 Truth time. How many of you have ever wanted to write a book? I don’t care if you did or not. That’s not the question. I’m just curious about how many thought about it.